Morning Vulnerabites…. So I’m nervous. I told myself that after my self-sabotaging karate kick that let the opportunity in Brooklyn slip right through my fingers, I would make more of an effort to #TMC (Take More Chances). So that’s what Im doing folks… and I am nnneeerrrvvvooouuusssss.
I submitted a quote of a couple thousand dollars for an opportunity in a neighboring state (let’s call it The Island) and TODAY they discuss the possibility of bringing me in… YIKES! Let me sort through my feelings on this screen….
- I want the opportunity, as it would be a great space for me to reach a different audience, to help people I don’t ordinarily have access to, a pretty cool resume builder and not to mention more dollars in my business account.
- I don’t want the opportunity, because I’m afraid of “messing up.” I mean what if I get there and just ‘flop’…. Yikes! But, I only miss the shots that I don’t take, right? I’m in “on the job training” and I’m figuring this all out as I go, with the help of my amazing mentor of course. And quite frankly, who cares if I mess up… I’m human right. I really need to learn how to hold myself to a standard of grace and release the claws of perfection that I grip myself with so tightly.
In life, I either win or I learn— there’s no losing 🙂
In addition to giving that quote, I got an email last week from the organization I am Nationally Certified with asking if I would be interested in an opportunity in another state (let’s call it The Spring). I said “YES!”…. Even though I really wanted to pretend that I didn’t get the email, because as much as I want to do my business full time… I am SCARED folks! Like seriously. But, all I hear is Joyce Meyer’s voice in the background saying… “Do it afraid!”
I don’t know where these “inquiries” will take me… but I’m grateful for them. They are a step further than I was this time last year, and for that I am excited.
I do understand why most people don’t venture out into entrepreneurship… because there is no guarantee that all your effort and hard work will pay off, and I totally get that… but I’m out here giving it a try.
So, cheers to the honest space of my journey… I’ll keep you posted my vulnerabites.
The Naked Writer